Sunday, December 29, 2013

Mommy Diary Take Two: 1 Week

Friday, December 27, 2013
Dear Asher-

This week alone you have changed dramatically. We have had a lot of issues with your latch but you continue to eat really well and we will figure it out. You are so sweet, tender, and calm. It's such a dramatic difference from what we got used to with your brother that we spent the first few days worried there was something wrong--you are such a good little baby! You make this parenting thing easy. Keep making those adorable faces, I want to freeze frame you constantly. We are so in love with you!


Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 39 Weeks

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

39 Weeks

Sweet pea-

This week has been hard.  My hormones have been all over the place which usually means you're growing, so good for you and sorry about all the crying on my end.  This back pain is debilitating and it is hard to overcome most days.  I try to take it easy but sometimes it is just not possible; not when there are so many things I wanted to do before you arrive.  Suddenly it became really hard to imagine the changes that are going to take place once you get here; I was feeling a lot of guilt and anxiety both all at the same time which is strange.  You are going to brighten our lives so much I know that every moment will be worth it, every struggle and adjustment will be something we will eventually look past.  But wow, you will be here so soon. My body seems so ready and I know once you are here I will never be able to imagine the world without you ever again.  It is just how motherhood works; amazing and terrifying all simultaneously existing together. I love you.  



  • Boba Tea (oh gosh I want it all the time!)
  • Goat Cheese covered in Red Pepper Jelly

Friday, December 13, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 38 Weeks

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

38 Weeks

Sweet Pea-

Oh darlin', this week has been really hard.  I started having debilitating back pain that has left me laying on the floor in tears multiple times.  I also seem to be unable to do much during the day without it hitting again, so I have had to drastically slow down everything I do.  There were so many things left on my list that I have just had to prioritize based on what I will be able to handle until you arrive.  We had a crazy, freak ice storm for most of the week that locked us all in the house.  It was kind of nice to have all that time as a family before things change all over again.  All the Christmas things are around the house and it is hard to believe you will be here to be a part of the holiday with us.  Keep baking and fattening up in there; those tiny little feet are sure staying active so keep it up.



  • Citrus
  • Banana Bread
  • Mango

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Labor and Delivery Bags

Back when I was packing my bags for Lloyd I remember scouring the internet for ideas on things we should/needed to bring and the "checklists" being incredibly unhelpful.  Not to mention, woefully incomplete! Even then there were things I wanted to add or subtract from my list this time, so I figured I'd write them down again.  For reference, here is the blog post from way back when with Lloyd.

Labor Bag
  • iPod and speakers--and remember to put batteries in it this time, #facepalm.
  • Cell Phone Chargers--for you and your coaches
  • Mouthwash--the moisturizing kind, and not the small sample bottle because if you are a barfer (like moi) you'll need it a lot.  Sigh.
  • Toothbrush and toothpaste for both of you--because nothing is more annoying than your spouses dirty breath in your face during pushing.
  • Butter socks--just trust me
  • Hair ties, hair clips, and hair bands--you don't know what you'll want.
  • Camera battery charger and camera
  • Pretty pillow case--for the pillows you will need for both of you, hospital pillows suck. But more importantly for the pillow behind you during delivery, makes cute photos.
  • Facewash
  • Lip Balm and lip gloss
  • Old flip flops--in case you walk around you don't want to be leaking amniotic gunk on good ones
  • Snacks specifically for your coach(es)
  • Change and dollar bills--just in case
  • Rice heating pad (something like this, I've had mine forever and was super easy to make)--super usable for breastfeeding and back pain during delivery
Delivery Suitcase
  • Shampoo/Conditioner/Body Wash/Loofa--I collect the bottles out of our shower before they run out so we have big bottles that we toss when we leave, but have enough of for the entire visit (unlike those stupid "travel" sizes).
  • Hair Goop--ditto to keeping the bottles that are about to run out
  • Hair Brush--they had hair driers in our bathrooms but I spaced on the brush! Dumb move.
  • Razor and Shaving gel for both of you--strangely, I found great luxury in shaving my legs in the handicapped showers after delivery since I could see and reach my entire leg.  Weird, I know.
  • Coconut oil--makeup remover, body lotion, and baby oil for your child. Your skin will be so sensitive you'll want something mild.
  • Makeup bag with just the basics 
  • Nursing camisoles--I like the motherhood maternity ones for right after delivery but the target ones for long term, but either is fine; I just have a massive collection from Lloyd.  Don't bother bringing cute nursing tops with nursing bras, it will be way too complicated for you to handle post delivery.  Stick to the soft cotton cami's with their built in shelf bras.  It's all your tender boobies can handle anyway.
  • Yoga pants, sweat pants, running shorts--something comfy, stretchy and roomy for post delivery.  You'll want out of that hospital gown as soon as possible.
  • Robe--for when people come in
  • Old undies--mostly for going home in, they give you these weird mesh ones to wear during your stay that are strangely comforting in your swollen state but you'll need something to go home in.  
  • Something comfy and soft to go home in.
  • Boxers, shorts (or pants), shirts, and general comfortable clothes for your husband.  
  • Receiving blanket and burp cloth for baby
  • Going home outfit for baby--times two, just in case
  • Hats for baby--especially if you are delivering in winter or your kid has a huge head; the hospital ones never fit Lloyd!  They would literally pop off his little head every time they tried to put one on. So this time I'm bringing a bunch of larger sizes, haha!
  • Socks for baby
  • Sleep sacks/bag--they just put them in these thin little t-shirts, and that's fine but if they're cold or have body temp issues they end up swaddling them in the hospital blanket and then wrapping them in the receiving blanket and putting them on your chest to warm them up a lot.  And footie PJs are a pain for squirmy, constantly needing to be changed infants. We liked these gerber ones, and they weren't very expensive since we pretty much only use them for a few days since our kiddo's hate being swaddled.
  • Baby wash--they will try to use the Johnsons & Johnsons stuff to wash your baby.  Please don't let them use that crap (see this horrifying article about J&J products), and bring something that is carcinogen, formaldehyde, and nasty crap free!  Register for this and bring it would be my suggestion. 
  • More snacks, including sweets, than you think you will ever eat--you'll eat them.  Especially if you breastfeed.
  • Kindle--for reading in the middle of the night to keep you awake, somehow it distracts from the amount of sleep you aren't getting.
  • Lanolin--they'll give you small samples. Eventually. But you will need it right away
  • My Breast Friend pillow--I didn't bring it last time and I regretted it from that first feeding.  Propping yourself with hospital pillows was just awful!
  • Pillows for your hubby--Coach left the hospital with neck issues from the thin, plywood pillows they gave him. That and I kept stealing them. So just grab a few extra from home and shove them in your trunk just in case. 

After Baby (things to have ready at home, you don't want to be realizing you need them after you need them!)

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 37 Weeks

Wednesday, November 4, 2013

37 Weeks

Dear Sweet Pea-

My goodness this week has been a whirlwind.  It started off great with Thanksgiving until I poisoned us and we ended up severely ill and in OB triage for fluids the next day to keep you nice and safe.  I spent the rest of the week resting up and finishing projects around the house.  It finally hit me that you will be here in sheer days and I need to finalize all the things I want before you arrive.  Why it has taken this long for that to occur to me is odd, I know.  Also, heartburn and feet swelling both turned up this week hardcore--yikes.  We also started going weekly to the doctor but I have barely started to dilate and you're still pretty high up.  Which is fine!  I need these extra days to finish your wall decorations and rest before you have me up all night with feedings.  I am so looking forward to breastfeeding, it is such a magical experience.  Keep baking, we will hold you soon!


  • Grapefruit
  • Mango
  • Gatorade
  • Toast with Strawberry Jelly
  • Peanut Butter
  • Potatoes (roasted, mashed, fried--all of the above)

Monday, December 2, 2013

Ticking Time Bomb

This is a bizarre month to be pregnant. There is so much to do and so much I want to enjoy with Lloyd. Yet every day we tick closer to the date we all decided to "strongly encourage" this baby to come out. It seems so odd to know his birthdate this time around, after spending a month dilated with prodromal labor with Lloyd thinking "is today the day?" every time I woke up. Then waiting an additional week and having to be induced. The mind game was awful. 

This time I have this odd knowledge ingrained into me that I won't go into labor this time either. Call it experience, or family history (there's never been an early kid in my family. Ever), or hopeful premonition. But the count down is still official now. Weeks. Days. The absolute end to this pregnancy; the date we get to finally hold our miracle boy safely in this world. The sweet relief and beauty that comes with delivery. 

The decision to encourage this baby out wasn't easy. I won't have pitocin, so technically you can't even call it an induction. We weighed all our options and I do not believe in taking a child before they are ready. However, I refuse to have a c-section and we got dangerously close with Lloyd because of his head size and weight--I was very close to that point where they can't let you push any more, infection concerns begin, and just sheer exhaustion from working so hard and so long. To make that more complicated: Lloyd measured completely average sized throughout the pregnancy, even at the post-due sono. This child has measured large from the beginning by all the different sonographers and doctors. Head size included. Which is what tore me so badly; yes, he came out but my nether regions paid the price. Luckily my immediate recovery was easy (hemmeroids caused most of my discomfort, not the stitches), but it took the better part of 6-8 months before the lady parts were completely pain free. It would be great to avoid that by having a nice 8+ pounder. Which is what they predict we will have if we deliver on our chosen date. My body was meant to carry big babies, but even I have limits. 

So here I am, frantically finishing up a bevy of sewing orders that came into my shop last minute. Hoping I can get them done early this week so we can enjoy my last few days of pregnancy with the big boy. Today we are decorating the tree and switching out dishes for our Christmas ones (they were my moms and even though it'll be one more thing to put away after ABC is here, I can't not bring them out), maybe drinking some hot cocoa (in 70° Weather), and watching Christmas movies with Lloyd. This weekend I am determined to get us all up and at the Polar Express showing at the IMAX. These are memories I will not sacrifice. I need these last days with Lloyd; I crave each moment with him knowing so much will change once we have two. I'm more patient, more watchful, more calm these last weeks with him. This time he has as an only child is now so short. He is so wonderful, so curious, so intelligent--he will make this transition with grace and wonderful maturity I am sure. Struggles, sure, but he is such an incredible kid. I owe it to him to make this Christmas just as special as any other. We both deserve it. But always in the back of my mind is the countdown. 

Days. How did we get here after so long? So many days, weeks, and months convinced this pregnancy too would fail. Now we can deliver any day and be considered full-term. It seems surreal and unreal simultaneously. Days! So much to do. His poor room isn't even finished, our bags only half packed! Oh second child, I'm so sorry. We love you so dearly. 

Two children. I'm going to have two children calling me mommy this month. Two angels with me on earth. How blessed I feel.