Sunday, December 29, 2013

Mommy Diary Take Two: 1 Week

Friday, December 27, 2013
Dear Asher-

This week alone you have changed dramatically. We have had a lot of issues with your latch but you continue to eat really well and we will figure it out. You are so sweet, tender, and calm. It's such a dramatic difference from what we got used to with your brother that we spent the first few days worried there was something wrong--you are such a good little baby! You make this parenting thing easy. Keep making those adorable faces, I want to freeze frame you constantly. We are so in love with you!


Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 39 Weeks

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

39 Weeks

Sweet pea-

This week has been hard.  My hormones have been all over the place which usually means you're growing, so good for you and sorry about all the crying on my end.  This back pain is debilitating and it is hard to overcome most days.  I try to take it easy but sometimes it is just not possible; not when there are so many things I wanted to do before you arrive.  Suddenly it became really hard to imagine the changes that are going to take place once you get here; I was feeling a lot of guilt and anxiety both all at the same time which is strange.  You are going to brighten our lives so much I know that every moment will be worth it, every struggle and adjustment will be something we will eventually look past.  But wow, you will be here so soon. My body seems so ready and I know once you are here I will never be able to imagine the world without you ever again.  It is just how motherhood works; amazing and terrifying all simultaneously existing together. I love you.  



  • Boba Tea (oh gosh I want it all the time!)
  • Goat Cheese covered in Red Pepper Jelly

Friday, December 13, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 38 Weeks

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

38 Weeks

Sweet Pea-

Oh darlin', this week has been really hard.  I started having debilitating back pain that has left me laying on the floor in tears multiple times.  I also seem to be unable to do much during the day without it hitting again, so I have had to drastically slow down everything I do.  There were so many things left on my list that I have just had to prioritize based on what I will be able to handle until you arrive.  We had a crazy, freak ice storm for most of the week that locked us all in the house.  It was kind of nice to have all that time as a family before things change all over again.  All the Christmas things are around the house and it is hard to believe you will be here to be a part of the holiday with us.  Keep baking and fattening up in there; those tiny little feet are sure staying active so keep it up.



  • Citrus
  • Banana Bread
  • Mango

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Labor and Delivery Bags

Back when I was packing my bags for Lloyd I remember scouring the internet for ideas on things we should/needed to bring and the "checklists" being incredibly unhelpful.  Not to mention, woefully incomplete! Even then there were things I wanted to add or subtract from my list this time, so I figured I'd write them down again.  For reference, here is the blog post from way back when with Lloyd.

Labor Bag
  • iPod and speakers--and remember to put batteries in it this time, #facepalm.
  • Cell Phone Chargers--for you and your coaches
  • Mouthwash--the moisturizing kind, and not the small sample bottle because if you are a barfer (like moi) you'll need it a lot.  Sigh.
  • Toothbrush and toothpaste for both of you--because nothing is more annoying than your spouses dirty breath in your face during pushing.
  • Butter socks--just trust me
  • Hair ties, hair clips, and hair bands--you don't know what you'll want.
  • Camera battery charger and camera
  • Pretty pillow case--for the pillows you will need for both of you, hospital pillows suck. But more importantly for the pillow behind you during delivery, makes cute photos.
  • Facewash
  • Lip Balm and lip gloss
  • Old flip flops--in case you walk around you don't want to be leaking amniotic gunk on good ones
  • Snacks specifically for your coach(es)
  • Change and dollar bills--just in case
  • Rice heating pad (something like this, I've had mine forever and was super easy to make)--super usable for breastfeeding and back pain during delivery
Delivery Suitcase
  • Shampoo/Conditioner/Body Wash/Loofa--I collect the bottles out of our shower before they run out so we have big bottles that we toss when we leave, but have enough of for the entire visit (unlike those stupid "travel" sizes).
  • Hair Goop--ditto to keeping the bottles that are about to run out
  • Hair Brush--they had hair driers in our bathrooms but I spaced on the brush! Dumb move.
  • Razor and Shaving gel for both of you--strangely, I found great luxury in shaving my legs in the handicapped showers after delivery since I could see and reach my entire leg.  Weird, I know.
  • Coconut oil--makeup remover, body lotion, and baby oil for your child. Your skin will be so sensitive you'll want something mild.
  • Makeup bag with just the basics 
  • Nursing camisoles--I like the motherhood maternity ones for right after delivery but the target ones for long term, but either is fine; I just have a massive collection from Lloyd.  Don't bother bringing cute nursing tops with nursing bras, it will be way too complicated for you to handle post delivery.  Stick to the soft cotton cami's with their built in shelf bras.  It's all your tender boobies can handle anyway.
  • Yoga pants, sweat pants, running shorts--something comfy, stretchy and roomy for post delivery.  You'll want out of that hospital gown as soon as possible.
  • Robe--for when people come in
  • Old undies--mostly for going home in, they give you these weird mesh ones to wear during your stay that are strangely comforting in your swollen state but you'll need something to go home in.  
  • Something comfy and soft to go home in.
  • Boxers, shorts (or pants), shirts, and general comfortable clothes for your husband.  
  • Receiving blanket and burp cloth for baby
  • Going home outfit for baby--times two, just in case
  • Hats for baby--especially if you are delivering in winter or your kid has a huge head; the hospital ones never fit Lloyd!  They would literally pop off his little head every time they tried to put one on. So this time I'm bringing a bunch of larger sizes, haha!
  • Socks for baby
  • Sleep sacks/bag--they just put them in these thin little t-shirts, and that's fine but if they're cold or have body temp issues they end up swaddling them in the hospital blanket and then wrapping them in the receiving blanket and putting them on your chest to warm them up a lot.  And footie PJs are a pain for squirmy, constantly needing to be changed infants. We liked these gerber ones, and they weren't very expensive since we pretty much only use them for a few days since our kiddo's hate being swaddled.
  • Baby wash--they will try to use the Johnsons & Johnsons stuff to wash your baby.  Please don't let them use that crap (see this horrifying article about J&J products), and bring something that is carcinogen, formaldehyde, and nasty crap free!  Register for this and bring it would be my suggestion. 
  • More snacks, including sweets, than you think you will ever eat--you'll eat them.  Especially if you breastfeed.
  • Kindle--for reading in the middle of the night to keep you awake, somehow it distracts from the amount of sleep you aren't getting.
  • Lanolin--they'll give you small samples. Eventually. But you will need it right away
  • My Breast Friend pillow--I didn't bring it last time and I regretted it from that first feeding.  Propping yourself with hospital pillows was just awful!
  • Pillows for your hubby--Coach left the hospital with neck issues from the thin, plywood pillows they gave him. That and I kept stealing them. So just grab a few extra from home and shove them in your trunk just in case. 

After Baby (things to have ready at home, you don't want to be realizing you need them after you need them!)

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 37 Weeks

Wednesday, November 4, 2013

37 Weeks

Dear Sweet Pea-

My goodness this week has been a whirlwind.  It started off great with Thanksgiving until I poisoned us and we ended up severely ill and in OB triage for fluids the next day to keep you nice and safe.  I spent the rest of the week resting up and finishing projects around the house.  It finally hit me that you will be here in sheer days and I need to finalize all the things I want before you arrive.  Why it has taken this long for that to occur to me is odd, I know.  Also, heartburn and feet swelling both turned up this week hardcore--yikes.  We also started going weekly to the doctor but I have barely started to dilate and you're still pretty high up.  Which is fine!  I need these extra days to finish your wall decorations and rest before you have me up all night with feedings.  I am so looking forward to breastfeeding, it is such a magical experience.  Keep baking, we will hold you soon!


  • Grapefruit
  • Mango
  • Gatorade
  • Toast with Strawberry Jelly
  • Peanut Butter
  • Potatoes (roasted, mashed, fried--all of the above)

Monday, December 2, 2013

Ticking Time Bomb

This is a bizarre month to be pregnant. There is so much to do and so much I want to enjoy with Lloyd. Yet every day we tick closer to the date we all decided to "strongly encourage" this baby to come out. It seems so odd to know his birthdate this time around, after spending a month dilated with prodromal labor with Lloyd thinking "is today the day?" every time I woke up. Then waiting an additional week and having to be induced. The mind game was awful. 

This time I have this odd knowledge ingrained into me that I won't go into labor this time either. Call it experience, or family history (there's never been an early kid in my family. Ever), or hopeful premonition. But the count down is still official now. Weeks. Days. The absolute end to this pregnancy; the date we get to finally hold our miracle boy safely in this world. The sweet relief and beauty that comes with delivery. 

The decision to encourage this baby out wasn't easy. I won't have pitocin, so technically you can't even call it an induction. We weighed all our options and I do not believe in taking a child before they are ready. However, I refuse to have a c-section and we got dangerously close with Lloyd because of his head size and weight--I was very close to that point where they can't let you push any more, infection concerns begin, and just sheer exhaustion from working so hard and so long. To make that more complicated: Lloyd measured completely average sized throughout the pregnancy, even at the post-due sono. This child has measured large from the beginning by all the different sonographers and doctors. Head size included. Which is what tore me so badly; yes, he came out but my nether regions paid the price. Luckily my immediate recovery was easy (hemmeroids caused most of my discomfort, not the stitches), but it took the better part of 6-8 months before the lady parts were completely pain free. It would be great to avoid that by having a nice 8+ pounder. Which is what they predict we will have if we deliver on our chosen date. My body was meant to carry big babies, but even I have limits. 

So here I am, frantically finishing up a bevy of sewing orders that came into my shop last minute. Hoping I can get them done early this week so we can enjoy my last few days of pregnancy with the big boy. Today we are decorating the tree and switching out dishes for our Christmas ones (they were my moms and even though it'll be one more thing to put away after ABC is here, I can't not bring them out), maybe drinking some hot cocoa (in 70° Weather), and watching Christmas movies with Lloyd. This weekend I am determined to get us all up and at the Polar Express showing at the IMAX. These are memories I will not sacrifice. I need these last days with Lloyd; I crave each moment with him knowing so much will change once we have two. I'm more patient, more watchful, more calm these last weeks with him. This time he has as an only child is now so short. He is so wonderful, so curious, so intelligent--he will make this transition with grace and wonderful maturity I am sure. Struggles, sure, but he is such an incredible kid. I owe it to him to make this Christmas just as special as any other. We both deserve it. But always in the back of my mind is the countdown. 

Days. How did we get here after so long? So many days, weeks, and months convinced this pregnancy too would fail. Now we can deliver any day and be considered full-term. It seems surreal and unreal simultaneously. Days! So much to do. His poor room isn't even finished, our bags only half packed! Oh second child, I'm so sorry. We love you so dearly. 

Two children. I'm going to have two children calling me mommy this month. Two angels with me on earth. How blessed I feel. 

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 36 Weeks

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

36 Weeks 

Sweet pea-

It is officially the holidays! All this pie is making its way into my belly and we have a massive liking of pecan pie. Yum yum. It's been a quiet week other than lots and lots of baking; I made a full thanksgiving for us and your brother so we don't get sick by accidentally eating something we are allergic to. Next year you will be enjoying all these recipes I perfected this year. We weren't able to see the doctor this week because of the holiday, so our appointment next week will be extremely busy since it will be one of our last. We have a beautiful room ready for you too. I cannot wait to meet you! You sweet boy, I'm most thankful for you this year.


  • Pecan Pie
  • Stuffing
  • Turkey Pot Pie
  • Root Beer

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Gluten Free Pie Crust

From here, great Julia Child quote

A few times recently I have sent the original link to the pie crust recipe I found and now make exclusively, but I have to include so many of my alterations it's a little embarrassing.  So here is the original recipe from King Arthur Flour but typed below is where it has ended up and never once has it failed me, torn, caused immense cursing, or made me even glance at another pie crust recipe.  It rolls out so incredibly easy, even if we weren't gluten free I would keep making it! Plus you make it in the food processor. Winning!

Gluten Free Pie Crust

2 1/2 cups Gluten Free All Purpose Flour (recipe follows)
1 tsp Xanthan Gum
1 tsp Salt
1 1/2 sticks (12 Tbsp) Cold Butter, cubed
2 Tbsp Honey
2 Eggs (or equivalent of egg replacer mix)
2 tsp Apple Cider Vinegar

In a large food processor add dry ingredients and pulse to combine.  Add cubed butter and pulse until crumbly then add honey, vinegar, and egg replacement or egg (whichever you are using).  Mix until a ball forms, if it is still a little crumbly add cold water a tsp at a time.  Wrap in Saran Wrap and refrigerate for at least one hour.  Divide dough in half and roll out between two pieces of wax paper.  Makes two crusts. 

Note: I have often made this a couple days in advance and left refrigerated with excellent results. I have also rolled it out, put it in pans, and frozen for use later; just thaw completely before adding your filling. 

Gluten Free All Purpose Flour
3 cups Brown Rice Flour
1 cup Potato Starch
1/2 cup Tapioca Starch

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 35 Weeks

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

35 Weeks

Sweet boy,

Man this week has been all over the place. We started out pretty normal: Daddy is done with football now and will be home earlier and able to come to some doctors appointments after thanksgiving, enjoyed a relatively calm weekend, then your brother and I caught head colds, and we ended up in Labor and Delivery one night because you hadn't moved all day. Scared the bejesus out of me and although I tried all the normal tricks to get you going (lots of sugary juice, caffeine, jiggling) nothing seemed to work. Then I had a few contractions and we knew we had to go get you checked out. Of course, as they got us hooked up to the monitors you started kicking like normal. Stubborn, are we? No worries, everyone was glad we got checked out. Our doctor is excited for us to be in these last few weeks; the next time we go in after the holiday we will start the final preparations for your birth! 

Love you bubba,

  • Chocolate Covered Raisens
  • Grapes
  • Mashed Potatoes
  • Toast with Strawberry Jelly

Friday, November 15, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 34 Weeks

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

34 Weeks

Sweet Pea-

These last few weeks will be so important for you.  You need to finish growing and getting "big and strong!" as your brother always says you are.  He keeps asking when you will come out of Mommy's big belly.  Just a few more weeks!  All this journey and you will be here in just a few short weeks.  I can feel you getting larger and more chunky as your limbs become more defined in each singular movement, even when you get the hiccups now my entire belly moves!  I keep thinking that I cannot get any bigger, but I know I will.  All this discomfort is just reminding me of how quickly you will be here.  Your room is pretty much complete and we have everything we need for your arrival; I love all your beautiful things.  I keep dreaming about delivering you and how you will look, you will be so handsome I just know it.


  • Homemade Chex Mix
  • Warm Apple Cider
  • Dark Chocolate Raisins
  • Burgers from In-n-Out
  • Pink Lemonade from In-n-Out (I hate lemonade!!)

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 33 Weeks

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

33 Weeks

Sweet boy-

You are finally at the stage where all you are doing is chunking out, and boy do I feel it! I now waddle most of the day from all your weight in my pelvis, my shirts aren't fitting, my skin is so tight it itches constantly, and I generally feel huge. We had such a lovely baby shower this weekend thrown by some of Mommy's friends; you got lots of cute things and some very useful gifts too.  The washing machine has been full of your tiny clothes for a couple days. They still seem too small even for when you arrive, it is hard for Mommy to imagine you in all of them sometimes. You will be so stinkin' cute! 


  • Lots and lots of pelvic pressure. It feels like his shoulders are rubbing against my pelvic bones.
  • My torn muscle pretty much hurts all the time now. I have no idea how this will effect labor but it makes me a bit nervous, won't lie!
  • My skin itches non stop! I alternate belly butter, vitamin e oil, vitamin e lotion, cetaphil, and aquaphor on it throughout the day but it's still red and itchy by night time. It looks so taught and translucent! Big belly! 

Friday, November 1, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 32 Weeks

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

32 Weeks

Sweet boy-

I can tell you are at the stage where you are really growing and starting to fatten up. You have started to really run out of room and are as uncomfortable as I am.  You move around constantly and make my entire belly ripple. Many of my maternity clothes no longer fit because I have entered, what your Dad calls, the basketball belly stage. The doctor is very pleased with our progress and we are just slowly counting down the weeks. There seems to be so much going on between now and your arrival that I know it will go by very quickly, even if it feels ages away. Your room is even mostly ready! I go in there often to think about you. I cannot wait to see what you look like! 


  • During my OB appointment they were totally pleased with everything, my weight is considered perfect, I've barely gained 20lbs. But to me, that's far too little knowing I lost 25 by my two week post partum with Lloyd! I really hope my milk is going to be ok without the massive fat reserve I had working for me last time. Even if gaining 50 pounds with Lloyd was bad, it sure helped when I was non stop feeding him for months on end and could barely keep up with the hunger. 
  • I can barely eat for the nausea that started this week. Then I get faint. So I just eat It's so annoying. I'm eating teeny tiny meals, less than Lloyd, and I'll feel sick for hours!  I get a small amount of heartburn at night when I lay down if I did manage to eat a lot. 
  • The belly button cavern is back. Creepy. Never got the outie with Lloyd either, just a huge void in the center of my belly.
  • At the end of a busy day the BH get crazy and the only way I can get my muscles to calm down is a bath in the garden tub. It feels great. To both of us apparently because after about 10 minutes, A wakes up and starts making massive movements and the watt looks like a wave pool. Yeash.

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Biting the Tail: Conversations with Lloyd

So yesterday after picking Lloyd up from school he wanted to finish his graham cracker bunnies from snack time. So I buckle him in, hand him the bag, and off we go. Not 3 minutes into the drive home and he's talking non-stop so I'm half paying attention trying to get onto the highway. Until I hear this:

"Momma!! I gunna bite the butt."
"What Lloyd?"
"Eat the butt! I eat the butt!"

So I glance behind me and, sure enough, he's holding the bunny graham by its head and the butt is gone. He's smiling like a maniac. 

"Oh, Ok Lloyd. You eating the Bunny's butt? Does it taste good?"
"Yup. I like bunnies for snack."

More chatter. Then:

"Momma.... Can I eat the bunny's tail too?"
"You betcha! Go ahead bubba."
"Ok, thanks Mom."

Where do they get this stuff???? Haha! I was shaking with laughter! 

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 31 weeks

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

31 Weeks

Sweet boy-

You are a movin' and a shakin' in there. Yipes!! You finally seem to be curling up, although you still can turn yourself around too much for my comfort. I'm fairly certain you're head-down but it is so hard to tell! I caught a pretty bad cold from your brother this week that has be laid up coughing, sneezing, and generally feeling pretty "punk" as your Grammy used to say. Hopefully we can get over it without needing meds, I'm hoping we will turn the page soon. I'm drinking lots to keep you hydrated, so I'm sure you have no idea what is going on out here. I also started washing and putting your things away. Made me feel good to do that. 

We can't wait to hold you,


  • Ginger ale
  • Banana Bread
  • Grapes
  • I have hit the "water wall": aka water is no longer doing it for me and I'm forcing it down. I hate to drink too much juice and crap but hydration is hydration. And as we learned with Lloyd, dehydration can toss some too-early contractions your way. So with this awful cold I'm indulging in ginger ale a lot this week. 
  • My skin is looking very stretched these days. I waddle if I have to move around when he gets really low. Everything is happening so soon. 

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 30 Weeks

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

30 Weeks

Sweet Boy-

This week has been so super busy with different things you have been great letting me do so much, but by the end of the day boy are my bones tired!  These Braxton Hicks continue to bother me mostly at night and when I've been walking around a lot, but not more than they should.  The doctor said everything looks good and nothing is wrong with how things are going so that is always nice to hear. We did come up with an official plan for your birth this week and she was relieved that we were all on board with the same ideas.  Everyone seems to be worried about your size and I just do not really care; you will be here when you get here, and nothing is going to change how big or small you will be anyway.  I am very confident in my body's ability to get you out, so it is just a waiting game now mostly.  Your brother tells you to go to "time out" quite frequently when you kick Momma; I think you are going to give him a run for his money, I cannot wait to see it.

Love always,

  • Banana Bread
  • Peaches
  • Pears 
  • Apples with Cheddar Cheese
  • The OB said everything I'm feeling from the pressure in my pelvis to intense BH contractions is totally normal for a second pregnancy.  Reassuring but not encouraging for the next 10 weeks.  
  • Heartburn is finally here.  Yuck.  

Friday, October 11, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 29 Weeks

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

29 Weeks

Sweet Baby A,

Can you just chill? Like a little? Maybe just for an afternoon? It would be awesome if that could happen because WOW, your feet are all over the place! When I have Bracton Hicks I also feel your tiny shoulders bear down deep into my pelvis now; it is a challenge every day to not get overwhelmed with how fast this seems to go with you. Yet it seems so slow too, like you will always be cramped in my belly forever. We have such a relatively small amount of time left like this and I wish I was enjoying it more. I feel you all day and all day I just dream of the moment you are here. These coming weeks are so full of things I know they will fly past. I shamefully hope they do because then we will be closer to having you home my sweet sweet boy. Keep cooking but know I am waiting for you to come home to me. 

A lifetime of love,

  • Peaches
  • Meatloaf
  • Potatoes
  • Ginger Molases Cookies
  • So much pressure in my pelvis during Braxton Hicks. Definitely adding it to my list of OB questions. It's impossible to move until they're over. Uh oh.
  • Glucose test came back perfect but iron was barely below the minimum. Took the iron pills for 4 days (with a stool softener each day) and still my stomach and intestines were beyond irritated. And re-tore the hemorrhoid from last week. So screw that. It was 0.2 points bellow the minimum, I'll just add more red meat and iron rich foods in as much as I can. Those pills were awful. These hemorrhoids are bad; I better not have to push for 3 hours again or I'm going to need a proctologist more than my OB to stitch me back up. Holy crap (pun intended). 

Friday, October 4, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 28 Weeks

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Sweet pea-

Big boy! We are in the last trimester and I wonder daily if we will make it all the way to our due date. I am so wildly uncomfortable and you are so large I find it difficult to believe. Breathing is hard, you put pressure on my pelvis that makes me waddle, my muscles ache, but still you grow and I hold you safely inside. I feel independent body parts all day and can tell exactly where you are at all times. I swear I even saw the side of your foot swipe across my abdomen once. We have much to do over these last few weeks, and I will be so grateful to finally have things ready and to be finished. There's not much to do but enough that I still have a decent sized list for your Daddy. So many cute things await you.

We love you,


  • Grilled Cheese
  • Peaches
  • Nectarines
  • Pumpkin Muffins

  • I am increasingly out of breath doing even the simplest things. I have pain in my pelvis from his upper body settling down too. This happened so much later with Lloyd. 
  • My doctors appointment went well and I gained the right amount of weight (+6! Yay!). My regular nurse was out sick and the temp one that was there measured me differently and commented on my size. My OB didn't say anything because I think we all expect me to measure big since he has measured big from all the sonograms and, as she always laughs, "we know you just make big babies". I'm also assuming I passed my glucose test, despite almost throwing up on the nurse, because I haven't gotten a call to come take the 3 hour. Now I go every 2 weeks which is so great. Pregnant ladies live for our OB appointments! I forgot to ask when she'll check the heart again to see if the defect is gone, it's always in the back of my mind. Fingers crossed. 

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Big Brother Talks

Today after bible study Lloyd and I had this conversation after I had to push on my belly to get baby A out of my ribs so I could even bend over to unbuckled Lloyd's car seat. Totally cracked me up! 

Lloyd: A---- kicking mommy?
Me: Yes it hurts.
Lloyd (to the belly): A----! Bad choice!!! No kick! Bad choice!!!
Me: You're right! He shouldn't kick mommy! 
Lloyd: Time out? A---- time out, bad choices! 

Can you tell what we were telling him and where he spent a lot of time yesterday? Haha. We have had some regular 2-year old behavior issues (aka not listening) following what we are thinking was a minor gluten exposure (bad behavior, then no eating followed by stomach cramps and bad diarrhea). Today has already been remarkably better following the diarrhea so it must be almost out of his system. It's amazing how much just a small exposure turns this boy into a different child. There are so many skeptics out there but if you are an attentive parent and take the trouble to have a child diagnosed instead of writing a half dozen symptoms off as independent, the chances are truly remarkable. 

So glad to have my sweet, happy, fun boy back. We have learned our lesson: Lloyd now has his own jar of peanut butter. Coach made the one time mistake of spreading his gluten bread sandwich pb second after the jelly and just that little bit of cross-contamination was enough. Not enough to cause all the bloody stools, debilitating craps, bleeding rash, vomiting, and bloody stools we had a few weeks ago from a massive exposure. But bad enough to change his behavior. 

He's going to be the best big brother. Rocks his baby doll in Baby A's rocker, puts him in the car seat, changes his diaper, try's to nurse him (haha!), and readys him stories. It's so sweet to watch. We will have our challenges ahead, but this boy is going to be great. I can't wait to watch them grow together. :)

Friday, September 27, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 27 Weeks

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

27 Weeks

Sweet boy-

I keep counting the weeks until you are here; 3 months left still which is so hard to imagine.  I cannot help but think about the day you will arrive--will we be frantically running to the hospital and worrying about having all our things? Will it be calmer and more planned? Will we have the quiet delivery I wanted for your brother but didn't get? More than anything I don't want to feel rushed; I want to savor the beauty of your birth. I love you so much, so much my whole soul aches for your arrival. Come to me safely my sweet. Safely and with many blessings into our arms.


  • Nectarines
  • Peaches
  • Egg rolls

  • Sunday after church I felt a muscle rip off my lower right rib. Luckily I was sitting down or I probably would have collapsed. I had tears running down my face, it was excruciating. It's bothered me on and off since then, I keep feeling him push that muscle and it strains again. I keep waking up with lower abdominal pain, which I expect, but the rib pain is awful. 
  • He moves around even when I'm moving around and standing up. I end up holding my belly like I remember doing those last few weeks with Lloyd, just for support or my muscles ache. Thirteen more weeks, how???? 
  • If we eat out, my hands and feet swell up like crazy. So I guzzle water, which makes my muscles hurt until I go to the bathroom, and it's a crazy cycle. I really hope I can wear my rings as long as possible. 

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 26 Weeks

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

26 Weeks

Sweet boy-

I love all your movements. You aren't very cramped in there yet and you make use of all the corners. I keep expecting to see definitive limbs crawling across my skin, so far it's been too hard to tell. Although I can tell once your feet get going because they feel so different and tiny pushing on me. It is difficult to sit for long periods of time because you get really pushy and my muscles start to cramp and Braxton Hicks bother us both.  I have started piecing together your room and special things. I am looking forward to having it all put together. So many little things to get ready. 


  • Chicken
  • BBQ
  • Banana Bread
  • Candy Corn
  • JalapeƱo "Poppers"
  • Iced Mocha (decaf)
  • Nutella
  • It is already hard to breathe if I sit for too long. Just like with Lloyd, people already say how "lucky" I am to be tall and have "so much room". But all it really means is that my babies don't curl up until the very end when their luxury accommodations are finally at a limit. I have the same dang number of internal organs people! This baby feels so big in there, but everyone thinks so the further along they get. Even maternity pants aren't comfortable by the end of the day; I'm already camped out in yoga pants by dinner. 
  • There is such a thing as anal incontinence. I didn't really have a problem with urinary incontinence with Lloyd and haven't with this one either. But ... Yuck. Thanks to a lifetime of GI issues and hemorrhoids, I guess I can add this secret pregnancy side-effect to my list. Hurl.
  • While my weight gain is steady it seems so slow still. 14 weeks left and I have got to put on some serious weight soon. Most have the opposite problem but for those who struggle, it is a frustrating battle. I have zero appetite and force feeding yourself is agonizing at every single meal, it is literally a battle of wills to sit and force bite after bite down. Three to four times a day. Every day. With minimal results. It was annoying with Lloyd but eventually the weight flooded on. Then breast-feeding brought a massive hunger. Yet another reason labor is the best part. I love delivery. :)
  • My feet have started to swell a little by the end of the day. Just enough that I can feel how tight the skin is and it's yuck. 

Sunday, September 15, 2013

A Few Precious Weeks

In just, what are really, a few more weeks this little person will be a big brother.  I had tears running down my face this afternoon after he crawled in bed with me during my nap and fell asleep.  It was all I could do to bury my face in his sweet neck and hold on tight. These precious moments are passing too quickly; this baby of mine grows up too fast and it is about to get exponentially more grown-up once we add a new baby to his life.

I have sibling guilt I guess. We knew we wanted more, prayed and prayed, but simultaneously I feel so guilty taking away from it just being the 3 of us.  He was our first blessing.  My tiny little baby.  Now he'll be a big brother and it won't just be the tiny family that he made us into.  This little child made us a family.  Sometimes I can truly see how some can stop at 1; but for us, we feel incomplete as a whole.  Even though it is hard to turn his world around.  I just wish he was old enough to really remember our time as just a family of 3.  Because it has been so incredible.

He's going to be such a wonderful big brother. He kisses Baby A all the time, hugs my belly, asks me if Baby A kicks me when I have that "ouch child, not the ribs" look on my face.  He's so sensitive, so loving, so empathetic that I know he was meant to be the oldest.  But it still breaks my heart.  

Looks like I have some special "mommy and me" and "daddy and me" days to plan before little man arrives.  That and to finally work on the presents Baby A will be "giving" him in the hospital.  Boy are they cute once I get them done. 

Sweet boy, still don't grow up too fast. You will always be my baby. 

Friday, September 13, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 25 Weeks

Wednesday, September 11. 2013

Dear Baby A-

I am exhausted!!  You are moving non stop! I keep expecting to see a little foot fly by on my belly but so far just big bumps.  Sleeping is uncomfortable because you push really hard the second I lay down.  I spent the last 4 days painting: first priming your baseboards, then painting them, then priming and painting your brothers, then painting your remaining wall.  But now I can start decorating! The fun part! Daddy got your carseat and other random items out of the attic so they have time to air out.  I am so ready to see the room start to look finished so I can put you in it.  I really am looking forward to being in the hospital with you, feeling you come out and hearing you cry, holding you on my chest, and seeing your beautiful precious face.  Keep getting chunky in there!



  • Chicken
  • Candy Corn
  • Banana bread
  • Hummus with Carrots
  • Pot Pie
  • Fruit - Peaches, Nectarines, Plums

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Lloyd's First Day of Preschool

I know some people think it's bizarre that we have put Lloyd in a 2-day a week preschool at our church.  Here's my answer: at 2 years old our son is desperate for more learning and interaction.  He does so much better with it. He looks forward to it and enjoys it immensely.  He is a 2 year old boy, he needs to start learning how to sit in a classroom and listen to a teacher now so we don't have the "do we hold him back? do we chance it?" problem.  

So here is my little goob, didn't even care that I left (obviously, see photo #3).

So far, the most challenging thing is what to pack for lunch and nap time there totally screws with our day.  But yay, he's loving it already.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 24 Weeks

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

24 Weeks

Dear sweet Baby A-

This week we have both been able to gain a bit of weight I think.  My muscles are feeling really strained by night time and my belly looks massive to me all of a sudden.  You have been getting the hiccups fairly regularly in the morning and your shoulders (I think) have a tendency to jab my bladder each time you jolt.  It sure makes it interesting!  Your Daddy loves rubbing my belly every chance he has, your brother talks to you and gives you sweet kisses all day, and I love rubbing you as you move around in there.  We had a good doctors appointment this week and everything looks normal, as long as I can put on more weight (what a uncommon struggle that is!).  We were told to think about taking you a week early, but I am pretty uncomfortable with that at the moment.  With the holidays and your size, I think it would make a lot of people more comfortable but I do not want to rush you out before your time.  Even though I dream constantly of the day when you will be here and I can hold you.  Your quilt is even done; how much I look forward to wrapping you snugly in it.  


  • Chicken
  • BBQ

  • Banana Bread
  • Fruit
  • Cranberry Juice
  • Marshmallows
  • Butternut Squash

  • I've been getting nose bleeds for about 2 weeks now.  Every few mornings I wake up with one usually, although today I had one driving Lloyd to preschool.  They're usually mild but a few have been of decent length.  So annoying.
  • My OB had to put me on a medicine for a bacterial infection she didn't feel comfortable swabbing me for but I had come/go symptoms of since my last appointment.  Since they can lead to pre-term labor it's mostly precautionary, but the side effects are terrible! I have had metal mouth all week; it tastes like a jar of pennies in my mouth no matter what I eat or drink and water just makes it worse.  Plus dry mouth! The combination is disgusting.  Today is my last day of the medicine and I'm so ready! Yuck!

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Crazy Pregnancy Brain

Pregnancy brain is a real and scary thing. So is nesting. And the nesting bug has hit. Here's what I did this morning:
  • Started diapers
  • Got Lloyd up and breakfasted
  • Put diapers out to dry
  • Stripped the bed, changed the sheets, put sheets in the dryer
  • Baking soda carpets in A's room and Lloyd's room--vinegar'd the stains
  • Put sheets in dryer, quilt in washer with bath mat
  • Vacuumed carpets (yuck!)
  • Mopped up bathrooms
  • Quilt in dryer, mat outside, and dog blanket in washer
  • Put my clothes away and tidied up Lloyd's closet
  • Get Lunch cooking and enjoy sitting with Lloyd as he demolishes his lunch
  • Get blanker in the dryer and quilt on the bed
  • Off to Costco!

I was exhausted but it felt good to get all that done. Lloyd was great and was very helpful and playful all morning--enabling me to actually get that all done. But after dinner was a hilarious chain of mental events that Coach was rolling his eyes at.
  1. Thinking about birthday cake and how yummy the one I'm going to get is going to be.
  2. Start thinking about how easy it would probably be to make a gluten free angel food cake--the cake we always had growing up.
  3. Thinking about how Lloyd can't have it and what I would do about all the left over egg yolks.
  4. Think about making him pudding.
  5. Get out of bed and start making pudding.
  6. Notice how nasty the vent grate is on our stove and how I wish it came off. 
  7. Figured out how to take it off. Put it in the sink with soap and boiling water. Scrub.
  8. Continue mixing pudding.
  9. Spray down stove and scrub off grease from grate.
  10. Finish pudding.
  11. Leave grate to soak overnight.
  12. Ignore husbands rolling eyes.
  13. Eat pudding.

Haha. Oh pregnancy!

Baby Diary Take Two: 23 Weeks

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

23 Weeks

Dear Sweet Pea, 

Cozy? Comfortable?  You seem like it.  You wake up mostly at night now to do your exercising and wow do you move.  I guess it is finally quiet and peaceful so you don't know what else to do but play around.  I know you will understand your Daddy and I, but will you also recognize your brother's voice? He loves to pat you and kiss my belly; "kiss baby" he says.  I cannot wait to see you both together, it is something I have looked forward to since the very beginning.  I feel larger by the day so you must be getting larger too.  It is hard for me to believe that you will be here in just a few months now, we are even almost through with the second trimester. I am already looking forward to going to the doctor every two weeks.  There is so much to get done but I know it will all happen. I am looking forward to washing all your things and getting your room ready. I will feel much better seeing all your tiny clothes waiting for you.  Daddy loves to rub my big belly now, I hope you can feel all our love in there.  

Many kisses,

  • Leftovers
  • BBQ (the smell still makes me gag!)
  • Fruit
  • Raspberry hand pies with vanilla ice cream
  • Salt, on everything
  • Scrambled eggs
  • Cinnamon raisin toast
  • Sloppy Joes
  • I was doing really well with the weight gain (up 6 pounds! yay) until the middle of the week and all food at lunch and dinner just seemed ick.  Making lunch is awful and I have no motivation to cook dinner.  Going out isn't even appetizing.  So frustrating.  So I'm back down to only +4lbs.  Just in time for my OB appointment this week though. I have got to gain more! This is so frustrating, I hate having to force food down all day long.  

Friday, August 23, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 22 Weeks

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

22 Weeks

Sweet boy-

Comfy in there are we?  You kicking fool!  All night long you roll around and kick me, boy you are strong already!  I keep wondering just how big you will be when you come out of there--it makes me excited! I hope you have dark hair like your brother and I, and those light eyes of your Daddy--but there's always a chance you could be a little blond baby.  What will you look like?  Huh?  I wonder. Genetics is a funny thing.  It has been an exhausting week, for some reason I cannot get enough sleep.  I am totally pooped by lunch time.  We even had a reprieve from the heat so I can't blame it on 100 degree temperatures right now.  Although it will be hot again soon, do not let Texas fool you.  I have so much to do for your arrival, I really do need to start checking things off my list.  Daddy is back in football though so it has been hard to get much done between being so tired and your brother, but I try to make time every day to get something done that will allow me to get your room ready.  You have so much stuff already piled up in there! Exciting!


  • Blueberries
  • My mom's banana bread (GF)
  • Cranberry juice
  • Cafe Mocha's (sad panda)
  • Homemade sloppy joes

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Funny Boy

Is my kid the only one who has days when he is an absolute riot from sun up to sun down? Seriously, he's killing it today. Here's a selection:

Get home from Spouts, I am cooking lunch so we sit down on the couch to cool off. He launches himself up and starts frantically pulling his pants down.
Lloyd: "Momma, done wit pants."
Momma: "ok hold on and come here, you still have shoes on. Can you get it off by yourself?"
Lloyd: completely frantic "MOMMA!!! Done wit PANNNNTTTTSSSSSSSS!!!"
Like I'm torturing him with them. Weird naked child! 

As we are getting in bed from choosing our nap time book:
Lloyd: BURP "'scuse me's"
Mommy: suppressing laughter
Lloyd: "wanna cuddah. Lay momma's arm" lays down "Cuddah on mommahs boobies."
Momma: eye roll. Curses Coach silently.

I woke up from falling asleep next to him (hello, pregnant). He rolls over:
Lloyd: "...More fries" burrows face in pillow

P.S. 'Fries' consists of any toasted vegetable in stick shape. Although today they were sweet potatoes with lunch. 

What a guy. So funny!

Gluten Free Banana Bread

So my mom's banana bread is ridiculous.  It's not very healthy, but it's so good. I'd found a good eggless blueberry bread that I make for Lloyd with banana's (and is good), I still really wanted some of my Mom's.  So I converted it to Gluten Free and (woohooo!) it worked!!! And it even, which is unusual for gluten free, browned and got a crispy crust on it. The ultimate victory!

And am I the only one who thinks of this when they say ridiculous:
Sooooo anywho sorry for being off topic and here is the recipe, printable follows.

Gluten Free Banana Bread

1 ¼ c Gluten Free AP Flour
1 c Sugar
Dash of salt
1 tsp Baking Soda
½ tsp Xantham Gum
½ c Oil
3 Small Bananas (or 1 c puree)
2 Eggs

Preheat oven to 350.  Mix dry ingredients in bowl.  Mix oil in until combined, add bananas and well-beaten eggs.  Bake 40 – 45 minutes in a greased bread pan, until top is  browned and toothpick inserted in center comes out clean.

Monday, August 19, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 21 Weeks

We are all caught up after this post!  This week will mark the beginning of my 22nd Week of pregnancy, so this is my last "catch-up" post!  I'll try to post between Wednesday and Friday of each week now, so lets get started!

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

21 Weeks

Dear Sweet Boy-

You have managed to flip yourself around a few times but it is hard to tell if you stay that way.  It is nice to have my belly button jabbed with your feet instead of my bladder, that is for sure!  You are so active I love it; you may never understand fully how wonderful it is to have you be so movement-oriented during this pregnancy.  Do you know how much I need that every day to remind me you are OK?  We have less than 5 months left until you come and I am going to start getting things ready for you in the next few weeks.  It will be much easier once your big brother goes to school, but the baby quilt I made you sits by my bed at the moment and I look at it with big smiles thinking of wrapping your tiny little person inside of it this winter.  There are so many things I cannot wait to experience with you.  Keep cookin'.


  • Rice Krispies
  • Ice cream cake
  • Fresh tomato salad
  • Nectarines
  • Almost anything spicy
  • Homemade peppermint patties

Friday, August 16, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 20 Weeks

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

20 Weeks

Sweet boy,

Oh my darling, I adore you.  Despite this being a troubling week for us as a pair, I feel immensely sure we will make it together. We are half way now, only the big and heavy parts really remain--you get heavy and I get big.  Your feet are still down and you make it uncomfortable with those Feet of Furry going all day every day.  I am looking forward to when you flip around and those feet are just busting my ribs (never thought I would say that!) because you keep kicking my crotch and bladder.  You are going to be pretty unhappy in there when you eventually run out of room. This week also marked, finally, some small weight gain! Hurray! I need to keep that up to make sure you have plenty of nutrients to draw from now and after you are born.  

Love always,

  • Goat Cheese
  • Mineral water with lime
  • Iced Mocha
  • Refried beans
  • Rice Krispie Treats
  • This little guy is infinitely more active than his brother.  His kicking jolts me and is uncomfortable already, I am afraid for when he gets some weight behind those limbs. I had some contaminated food and he barely moved for 2 days, terrifying, but yet another sign to us that my Celiac diagnosis deeply effected all our pregnancies.  I am now even more paranoid about all these diet restrictions. If you can imagine.
  • I put 2 pounds on! For me this is a massive victory, especially considering I had 15 to struggle to gain back from morning sickness.  I'm exceedingly worried about gaining more than enough for not just now but maintaining a steady weight after the birth with breast feeding and a restricted diet. I lost so rapidly with Lloyd that it almost effected my milk a few times, so I'm a bit concerned preemptively--as usual.
  • The perinatologist was unable to clear the heart defect they viewed at the 19 week standard ultrasound. My OB believes it will go away, but if it doesn't it could be a soft marker for 2 different issues.  So we continue to pray for a healthy baby.  Nerve wracking at first but now we are just hoping it solves itself as most do, we are told.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 19 Weeks

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

19 Weeks

Sweet boy,

Boy did you give us a good look at all your tiny parts at our big ultrasounds this week! We got to see your feet, your hands, and your beautiful face.  Last time you looked just like your big brother but now I am not quite sure you will have your Daddy's head or chin! I guess we will just have to wait and see! You are already measuring big, no surprise there, and wiggly.  You kicked the ultrasound wand so hard it jumped on my belly--Daddy even saw it and laughed. You are so incredibly strong, you bounce around like on a trampoline all day.  I look forward to it every morning and you wake up every afternoon very active.  After seeing your hands and feet moving around all I could do was think about holding you in my arms; I am looking forward to labor and meeting you.  I hope you are too, I feel like you're going to get cramped in there really soon!
Love you so much,



  • Smoked oysters
  • Nectarines
  • Mineral/Sparkling water
  • Fuzzy Tacos

  • Our OB appointment was wonderful with the long ultrasound.  I cannot wait for him to be here. But they couldn't clear his heart so we had to go to the perinatologist later in the week for a Level 2 u/s.
  • This little boy uses my uterus as a trampoline, my goodness! Lloyd was never this bouncy! It startles me constantly but I live for those movements, I'm so glad he's active.  But I'm worried about when he's bigger and cramped--it's going to be uncomfortable for both of us for sure! Especially if he's even bigger than Lloyd. Yikes.

Monday, August 12, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 18 Weeks

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

18 Weeks

Sweet boy-

This week has been plenty busy for everyone and it seems to have come and gone almost before I could write to you.  Daddy is done with summer break this week and we had a lot to do around the house so I can start really preparing for your arrival.  In the next few weeks we will probably start getting your furniture back down from the attic and out of your brothers room.  I am very ready to start cleaning and putting the clothes we have for you away and ready.  I also got more fabric to make the blanket we will bring you home from the hospital in.  Nesting is real and it was making me crazy to not at least be starting to get ready.  I already have piles of things ready for you!


  • Chicken
  • Fish
  • Tomatoes with basil and olive oil
  • Avocados
  • Mexican food
  • Refried beans
  • Mineral water
  • Grilled Brie and orange marmalade sandwiches
  • I am finally able to use conditioner on my hair again, it has been so greasy thus far.  However, my scalp became ultra sensitive and I had to change to a natural, essential oil based shampoo to keep from scratching my head like someone who has lice. Agony!
  • Belly grew again and my muscles are not happy about it. I have a lot of sharp and stabbing lower round ligament pain all day. If I twist or bend I can (literally) feel the muscles pull away from the cartilage.  This is scaring me for when it's closer to the end.
  • ABC is far more bouncy than his brother was in utero.  Lloyd mostly slid around and flailed limbs once he ran out of room. This kid is on a trampoline in there.  Keeps jolting me! 

Friday, August 9, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 17 Weeks

Wednesday, June 17, 2013

17 Weeks

Sweet boy-

You are really busy in there! I've already felt you move against my hand and so has Daddy! That is incredible! I feel you on and off all day, every day--even when just walking around some times. You are getting really big, your movements make you feel like a real baby is growing! You bounce around a lot then just kind of slide around; you are going to hate being cramped in there in just a few months! We have gone swimming a lot this week to beat the heat and it makes this growing belly less heavy.  It is a wonderful feeling, I can't wait to take you swimming next summer. You will love spending time in the water! 


  • Chicken
  • BBQ
  • Fresh tomatoes with basil and oil
  • Smoked oysters
  • Mineral water
  • Refried beans
  • The little guy moves so much! Lloyd mostly did what I always described as "body surfing my uterus", this baby bounces around a lot. And then will suddenly slam up against my uterus so hard my skin starts to pull; this is what Jon was able to feel so soon!
  • If I walk too much the muscles feel so strained already, by the end of the day I'm in excruciating pain and hobbling around.  I really didn't know I was in such poor shape! And I still am 7 pounds down!
  • Still zero appetite, making getting this weight back on awful.  Not to mention frustrating.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 16 Weeks

Wednesday, June 10, 2013

16 Weeks

My sweet boy-

Growing again are we? Your momma is BEAT at the end of the day.  Add some pretty awful nightmares giving me fitful nights and its been a rough week.  My muscles are also really straining again, which is about right according to the books--you really start growing these next few weeks.  I've been able to put a few pounds back on (finally) and so I am sure that it is all related.  I've also noticed that if I do not wear my all-stars or running shoes with my orthotics, my hips and back are feeling broken by the end of the day--which is hard in the heat we have been having.  So I wear shoes even just around the house. You are going to give me a run for my money later on, you are already bouncing around a lot in your temporary home.  Once those limbs are bigger my ribs are going to be in trouble, but I love it.  Keep kicking!



  • Goat Cheese 


  • Nectarines
  • Chai Tea (although I can't have a whole glass, too much caffeine)
  • Orange Juice
  • Cucumbers with Balsamic Vinegar

Monday, August 5, 2013

Baby Diary Take Two: 15 Weeks

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

15 Weeks


You must be growing because I am sick again, not as bad as a few weeks ago though, and my abdominal muscles are really painful as they stretch to accommodate you.  The few pounds I had managed to gain back have partially slipped away which is so defeating because I was working so hard for each one of them.  We told much of the extended family about your arrival and so many people are excited to meet you.  You are so loved and prayed for.  I hope you know that.  Just one little favor? Please come on your own, we don't want to force you out--that is not fun for anyone. Just something to think about for the next 25 weeks!  I also started to feel you move occasionally, which I love.  I feel you the most as I put your brother down to sleep--I love to think you are enjoying the books with us.  I think of you all day my sweet.


  • BBQ
  • Katsup
  • Meat
  • Grease of/on anything
  • Pancakes
  • Bagels with butter
  • Orange Juice