Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Sewing for Baby/Mommy

There are various projects I've seen around the web that I would love to have for baby.  I'd love to have a nice gown I made for the hospital, but I'm both intimidated and too cheap to buy the $60 on ebay.  But these little projects I think I might be able to do.

A Case for your Diapers and a wipes cover - which I made and posted here

Nursing Cover - which was more intimidating to read than do, also here

Laminated Bib - even has the pocket on the bottom to catch the extra food

Car Seat Handle Cover - awesome idea

Sippy Cup Leash

Sassy Baby Bib (snort, haha)

Cloth Blocks (might be great for those scraps you'll have from all the above projects)

Cloth Baby Rings

Super Easy Pacifier Clip (I refuse to call them "binkies")

Nap Roll (holy jeeze how cute is this thing for when your kiddo grows up and goes to school!!)

But basically, check out Make it and Love it. obviously I did. And once I finish all my other "projects" I'll be tackling some of these. :) If I can make time during all my PhD this fall, I'm dreading the 2 classes! eek!!! Maybe christmas break projects.... let's be realistic afterall.

Monday, August 30, 2010

I Got Off My Lazy Butt

I finally finished all the cut-ins and trim work on the painting I started months ago.  It's done and it looks awesome, even Coach said it looked killer.  I painted all the trim white, got the ledges, everything. However, I have not tackled the front door yet. So as you might be able to see, it's still yellow-ish. I'm debating whether or not to paint it a color, or just white. I want to paint the outside part a color definately.  I think it would be kind of fun to also paint the inside portion a color.  Nuts? perhaps.  :)

I still haven't tackled the trim on the TV wall, it's so tall and precarious with the difficulty getting close (the fire place juts out about 2 feet, so it's really difficult to straight paint lines up there even on a 12 foot ladder).   But TV wall is using Behr Florence Brown 230F-7 in Satin and the main wall photos used Behr Clamshell 260E-2, just if you needed a reminder.

I also have a new favorite band courtesy of a friend, Morcheeba.  Check a listen.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Pot Pie Addiction

I jacked the top crust up, the other was much prettier. but it tastes damn good.
I'm having a not-so-minor homemade pot pie addiction.  I had a bunch of lamb left over from a loin I made.  Too much for leftovers.  I made one pie on Monday.  It's gone.  I made another tonight before class.  I could eat a quarter of it. For some reason, my whole "I'm full" mechanism is broken--I could eat everything in site and still  not feel full. I do, however, have constant all day heartburn that radiates into my toes.  New medicine is being tried tonight. Holy jeeze. Also, I'm obsessed with my pie plate with cover. AWESOME and handy.

So I haven't posted a recipe in a while.  Here's my momma's pot pie. You can use chicken, obviously I used lamb and it's AWESOME.

Pie Crust (makes 2 crusts, enough for one pie):
2 cup flour
1pinch salt
1/2 cup oil
1/4 cup milk

Mix together, roll out between wax paper.  

6 Tbsp Butter
1 small onion
minced garlic
1/2 cup flour
3 cup chicken stock
10oz frozen vegetables (I use the pea/carrot mix and half a can of corn, it works)
Meat from 1 cooked chicken (or 4-5 boneless, skinless, chicken breasts)

Melt butter in a large skillet, add onion and garlic and saute until see-through.  mix in flour to make a light roux.  Add chicken stock, bring to bubbly.  Add vegetables and meat and heat until cooked through.  

Heat oven to 425 and place bottom shell of pie crust in pie plate and pre-bake while it's preheating for just a few minutes.  Add the filling, add the top crust.  Crimp the sides and vent in the center.  Bake for approximately 20 minutes, until crust is golden.  Remove and let sit for 5-10 minutes.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Dear Baby Boy

Dear baby boy:

I am really worried about you. You haven't eaten since Thursday evening. Friday you threw up the entire contents of the only small patch of grass we have in the backyard.  You are barely drinking.  The vet didn't know what was wrong with you yesterday, but she took some blood and gave you some fluids and antinausea--you're just like a little human.  You only want to sleep in our bed and go there the second we let you.  I was so afraid you would die last night because you still didn't eat, so I let you sleep with us and I woke up every 30seconds to make sure you were breathing. 

You wouldn't eat this morning but let me bring you water, this afternoon I left work early and you ate about 2 tbsps of food, you loved it.  But you stopped eating after that little bit.  I gave you some puree'd chicken and rice, you ate about 2 more tablespoons--that's great news. Right now I think you're alseep right next to me. I appreciate you being so cuddly, but I want you to be back to your normal self.  You've lost 2 pounds, which is a lot for your 15.3 pounds before.  You're all boney.  Please eat, please get better.

Please please get better!! I love you baby boy....


P.S. thanks for the baby training. That was some nasty vomit.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Little Animals

I haven't felt like posting this lately, but I figure this blog could use a pick-me-up.  During the sewing expedition of the last month, I made several stuffed animals (remember Puffy Puppy?).  I gave one to one of our officers who just had a cute baby.  He sent me a photo of their little man drooling all over the little guy I sent them.  It makes me smile.  Nothing like a cute baby to perk up the day and remind you how precious life is.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Didn't Think That Through....

I wrote this Wednesday night and didn't post it. Obviously I was a bit "punchy". I needed a bowl of ice cream, which I never ate.

Ironic that right as I found a drink worth drinking I am off alcohol again. What a fuckin load of bull. Even if I did feel like The Dude every time I poured myself one.

Also, never thought about the porn implications of my blog name before. Should I be concerned? I could rename it CrockFullofIT. Which is a part work inside joke, part kinda funny, part I have just gotten home from a 13+ hr day. They call me Crock at work, used to be Happy (from Happy Gilmore). Which is better than Betty Crocker I guess. Which is only slightly better than my old nickname, Alice the Goon.

But for now, whatever. I'm kinda ok with googling the blog and getting porn for now.... You think those are real? Me neither....

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Wanna Be PenPals?

I’m a big fan of blogs these days. It’s always possible to find someone who is like you or at least sometimes thinks like you. I’d love to have a full time bloggie job, but I’m not even sure how that happens and I’m pretty sure I used up all my “good luck” when I met Coach. I’m still kinda shocked at that one. Damn he’s fine.

Anyways…. Where was I going with this? Ugh, ADD brain has interrupted OCD brain and Depression brain. Again. What a bitch.

Oh yeah, what I like about some blogs more than others is when you can really get to see the person underneath. But what my weird little mind gets wrapped into is that all of a sudden I get too involved in them, or I feel like it’s too involved, and I want to be their friend. Like in real life. As in, not on the internets. I want to call them up, or at least have the option to call them (even if I have a complete fear of cold calling people…. Just like my fear of using bathrooms at people’s houses, weird). I want them to like me as much as I like them, as in—if we really knew each other.

And I guess that’s where today’s modern technology and blogosphere has kind of replaced some little parts of reality, you can reach out without reaching out. But I like reaching, I like going to dinner and having one too many margarita’s and calling Coach to drive me home. What’s not to like about that? So to the bloggers that I read: wanna be pen pals?

Tuesday, August 17, 2010


So I ran out of paint last month. I got most of the walls done, but half the trim unfinished. I hate trim. I also only made it through painting half of one of the main walls in the living room, so it's painted half way up. This is one of the uber tall walls. I also never finished the brown color on the accent/TV wall once I painted the crown molding, so it's also still not done (3 months ago? nice huh). But that wall is a b*tch to paint because it's a friggin high wall, and the fire place in the middle makes trying to get close to the wall to actually paint it extremely precarious. it's one gnarly bitch.

So basically with no pregnancy I need to light a fire under my ass. My complete lack of motivation isn't helping. I at least need to finish the walls I started so it doesn't look so shitty in the house. Every time I look at them I then remember that I have to paint a few more window-sill's white (5 to be precise), before I do the trim. Or I guess I could do one coat of white, then start the trim, then do the second. I haven't even started painting 2 large walls in the living room. Only one of which has curtains on it (major pain to remove those bitches), but there are lots of windows (5 big ones) to do lots of cut-ins on. I could scream. If I had the energy. Hi, I'm manic.
I also bought primer to finally paint a few things I need to get cracking on asap:

  • repaint my rocking horse

  • repaint 2 antique chairs I bought 6 months ago (also have to reupholster them)

  • repaint 2 of my dining room chairs (casualties of paint splatter)

None of this takes long. But it's tedious. And I'm feeling SO lazy these past few weeks. I have no energy. My eyes are still droopy.

I just need to do it already. It'll feel nice to have it done. I hate HATE it! I wish we had the money to pay someone. Sigh.... painting is shittastic.

In Memory

Faith, Hope, Love Necklace by SimplyUBoutique

How do you remember someone?  personally, I think it depends on the person you chose to remember.  But I struggled with how to remember the baby when we lost him/her.  With Preston, I have photos but I feel absent when I look at them sometimes.  He was a person full of life, full of movement.  I remember him when I'm outside, when I feel peace in my surroundings; when my life feels calm.  I feel him when I laugh, when I make Coach roll his eyes;  when I dance around the living room to my favorite song.  His smile lives on when I look at my husband and find our love in his eyes.

Grief is something very different for everyone.  I've experienced enough of it to know that it effects us all in different and varied ways that even we cannot predict.  With my father, it crippled me.  My heart broke, and I exited my childhood at a gazelle's pace.  I still remember him in every life choice, every event he's missed, every embrace I wish he was there to give me when the tears won't fall.  With the baby, it was an inner ache, at first a feeling of failure and ineptitude that developed into a desire for life; a grief that brought my marriage closer as we were on our knees.  The loss of our child gave me a gift as well, one that perhaps I missed with my father--the knowledge that control is not mine to have, that life is short and fleeting, and that if you want something grab it.  Not in an hour or a day, but then.  If you think of something or someone, do it and call them and hold them close. 

With Preston, my world seems sleepy.  My heart is both heavy and light as he passes through me; his memory is so strong.  He is the one person I've probably allowed myself to be true with; he helped me free myself and ride freely through my life.  When I was with him I always was reminded of that, always brought myself back to center.  He brought that out in people.  In his death I was reminded of that selflessness he had in his entire existence.  I was reminded that my favorite memories of him were the ones in which he would call and we'd just do something, we'd go ride or we'd go meet strangers, on a moments notice with no planning.  His was the call you could pass on because it was a whim, just something silly--something you might have had an excuse to "miss".  But because it came from him, I never did.  He's the only person I can say for sure that whenever he called, I would drop everything and give him anything he needed -- a place to stay, a ride, help moving, a smile, a beer, and a good listen.  I did all those things for him, and he did thousands more for me.  So when it came to the end I cried.  But I know that our friendship was pure, good, and withstanding--withstanding even this, because I know he's still with us and I'll see him again.  I'm saddened that I wont be able to see him, or get hilarious emails and texts, but I'm also pretty at peace with losing him this way.  He went out under his terms, even if it was too soon.  Maybe I'll break down more later, but right now--really--I love him just as much as always, but no regrets. No bitterness, just peace--which I know is how he wanted it anyway.
I Carry Your Heart In Mine necklace by Designs by Cathy

Monday, August 16, 2010


There is a huge bug caught between my window and the blinds. It's been there for about 2 hours. Bzzzzz..... (pause).... Bzzzzzz ..... (pause). To say it's annoying really isn't encapsulating the fact that every time I look over at it, I catch a view of the sun outside and it's stark difference between the mood inside me. My dear friend Preston finally passed away yesterday. July 17, 1981 - August 15, 2010. 29 years young, and a life well lived, but a life that is dearly missed. Bzzz.... (pause).

I need a damn fly swatter for my life. You've got to be kidding me.

I have a lot of thoughts whirling in my head and I doubt I'll post them all. Most of them have a feeling of sorrow, usually accompanied by my general feeling of malaise right now. My eyes feel tired, they droop. There aren't any more tears. But there is a lot of droop.

Also, from the department of redundancy department this is what the bottom of my fiber bar reads: Contains Soy, Milk; May contain peanut, almond, sunflower and wheat ingredients. So in addition to some confusing punctuation (i.e. "Soy (coma) Milk" which could either mean Soy and Milk, or Soy Milk), basically if you have any allergies this bar is not for you.

If this blog had a tag line like that what would it say? Contains foul language, attempted craftiness, thoughts on loss of love, inability to tolerate douchebaggery, and extreme unlike of the unknown. I duhno.... basically, we're feeling kinda down here at livingforlove.

Thursday, August 12, 2010


Preston has been moved to hospice.  We don't know how long. I love you buddy.  I'll see you again someday.

Update: Preston Drew Haun July 17, 1981 - August 15, 2010

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

It's All Twisties From Now On

any motorcycler will get the name of this post.  And I think it's true today.  My friend Preston who is the best person I've ever known, is in his final moments.  The world will be so empty without him.  He is the best and most wonderful person.  But the strength to know to let go is even harder than the strength to hold on.  He went into ICU this morning and has decided to go peacefully into the night. 

I love you. I will miss you.  I will think of you always.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Yet to be Named Duckie

Didn't work so well with the flash....
without flash, he has purple seersucker wings, but it's hard to tell
Made one of these cute little guys Sunday after finishing Puffy Puppy up.  Pretty cute.  Thoughts?

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Say Hello to Puffy Puppy

My sister Caitlin and I decided to have craft day yesterday.  I had to be at work at 7am, so she came over after lunch. The boys watched TV (hello Shark Week) and hung out, while we tackled a pattern I picked up on sale at Hobby Lobby--they had a sale on patterns for 99c each a few weeks ago so I got some cute stuff.  She wanted to do the Baby Booster Pillow, so I'll have to tackle the dress I want to make on my own.  But here's Caitlin working on our pillow, lovingly named Puffy Puppy:
Caitlin had a hell of a time with the seersucker overlay. 
So here is finished Puffy Puppy:
I made Coach try it out as a neck pillow, overall he wasn't impressed but it made me laugh.  I'm still really in shock that we made this thing. It's super cute.
Coach enjoying Puffy Puppy
:)  No, I'm not pregnant yet.  But this is so cute I still can't wait to be. haha

Friday, August 6, 2010

Vegan? Tasty? YES! And LOCAL!

Spiral Diner and Bakery
1314 W. Magnolia Ave

I'm from Austin.  Know for being a bit more earthy than the rest of Texas.  I know it for being an awesome place to find hole-in-the-wall food, of all kinds.  I've said before that Fort Worth is the cowboy version of Austin, or Austin with a Cowboy twist--if you may.  I always descirbe myself as living in Fort Worth, NEVER Dallas. I'm not a fan of Dallas.  For many reasons I don't feel like going into.  But one of which is that I hate eating at chain restaurants, there are few exceptions, but for the most part if someone says Chilli's I try to convince them to go somewhere else.

Well Kristy, my high school friend and now Fort Worth resident, and I met for lunch yesterday at the Sprial Diner and Bakery.  wow.  Totaly cool, totaly trendy, and the food: AWESOME!  We both had wraps and not only were they huge, but they offered a huge slice of watermellon as a side.  Did I mention that it was a 105deg. yesterday? I could have bathed in that watermellon.  It was awesome.  Also, I had to try one of their cookies. WOW.  Super fluffy, super soft, and awesomely delishous!  I want more.... Dont judge Vegan/Vegitarian by its name, most of the time it's better than anything else you could get with meat and by the time you've just finished licking your plate clean you forgot you missed the meat anyway. yum yum.

So if you live locally, check it out. It was packed too, always a good sign!  Plus, they have something called a "Deathstar Sunday".  Who on this planet doesn't think that sounds awesome? and All you can eat pancakes for like $6 on Sunday, yipes! sign me up!!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

The Best Kind of Friend

I've posted before how our friend Preston is very sick.  His condition isn't getting better, and the updates we're getting are not improving.  I'm praying and know he can pull through this, but it's hard to think of the future when your friend who is so young (28!) is so very very sick.

So I found some hilarious photos from the past few years and I was flipping through them, but I thought I'd share some of Preston's awesome smile for everyone else to see.

We love you Preston. You are the perfect example of the best kind of person, the best kind of friend. Lots of prayers and love going your way.

Fuck cancer, ride bikes.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010


Bon Voyage print by SimplyHue

Coach and I were toying with the idea of taking a short trip over the holidays.  The crappy part is that we won't know when we'll be able to go because of football season--this years redistricting could send us 3 deep into the playoffs....or not. But we wont know until we get there.  So planning is very hard. 

We've been watching a lot of the travel channel lately for some reason and then Coach was laughing at the crazy people on the show Pawn Stars.  Basically, Las Vegas is awesome.  The people watching is great, they have great restaurants, great shows, all that.  We're not really gamblers but people forget how much else there is to do there!  I think he'd love it, he cracks up at that kind of thing.  I've been like 4 times, he's never been. 'Nough said.

Well on Gilt (joining is still free) they occasionally have sales on a Las Vegas hotel or two, so I'm keeping my eye out.  Every other hotel is very exotic and while I would love to go to Tuscany, that's not in our time table these days.  However, a short jaunt to Vegas would be... or maybe a ski trip.  We can't even plan a spring break vacation because he has soccer games that week (fail!).  All the vacation stuff we want to do is winter stuff, it's too hot to travel during the summer I swear!. 

speaking of which, it's 105 today. It was 104 yesterday. I haven't stopped sweating for 3 days, I've had a headache for 5 days (might be unrelated, who knows), and I feel like a camel.  I'm not a patient woman and I'm waiting on a lot of things right now, one of which is for it to cool the heck off! Dang it Texas, you've proved your point!

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Crafties for Mommies

I made one double sided nursing cover last weekend, and I made a second this weekend. I also finished the 2 diaper wipes cases (one each, to match their nursing cover), and did one diapers case.  First, the fancy set. Then the set that will match (eventually) the fabric theme I'll use to make all the stuff in the babies room. I know, don't judge--I have to have stuff that matches.

Set #1:

Set #2:

So I put some nails up the eventual baby's room -- aka second guest bedrooom -- and hung the nursing covers up.  The shelves now have a good stack of blankets, burp cloths, and now these crafts on them.  :)  I know, I'm nuts.
School starts in a few weeks for me too so I'll be back to just reading massive amounts of PhD stuff so I figure this is my last chance for a while to any sewing.  :)